To say I have been a "negative Nancy" as of late (I guess to perfect term would be a "Debbie downer."), would completely downplaying my recent behavior. About two weeks ago I think I hit my yearly breaking point, which is pretty typical for me right before the holidays. You know, that point where you feel like you just can't do or give any more. The point at which you feel physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted, but you are not sure why. When you want to be completely alone, and at the same you're afraid to be by yourself. Yeah, that was me. I lashed out by posting "poor pity me" comments on facebook which caused the important people in my life to worry when there really wasn't anything to worry about. And in the end, I just needed to cry it out, and then run it out. Sometimes a good cry is really what you need. And once I cried, and cried and cried and cried, and yelled at Jason a little, I was over it. I hit the treadmill for a little 3 mile run once I put Lucia to bed, and decided that I just needed to pick myself back up, change my attitude, and get a freakin' grip.
The problem was that my "hallelujah" moment came a little too late, and sure enough, before I knew it, my Mom was on her way back from China, a month earlier than planned. Partly because of my little rant on facebook, and partly because she just wanted to get back home and get a head start on the holiday shopping and decorating. I felt really guilty about it at first. I did need to vent, but this is perfect example of why a social networking site isn't the right forum for it. Yeah, life gets tough as full-time working parents. It not all peaches and cream. There are highs, and there are lows, really low lows sometimes. But we're not the first parents to do it, in fact sometimes we just need to sit back and count our blessings, because we actually have it pretty good (and that is understatement). So as I said, I did feel a little guilty that my comments were enough to drive my Mom to hop on an unplanned 14 hr flight across the Pacific ocean, but there was no talking her out of it;)
Mom has been back in Winston-Salem for a week now, and while it is always great to have her around, this time it's been extra special. See, the family has been getting ready for Disney marathon weekend coming up in January. My father, Jason, and I are running the Goofy challenge which will add up to almost 40 miles in two days. My mom will be running the Donald Duck 1/2 marathon. My job will be to get her through it, and get her through it fast.
Mom has got some legs. Awesome legs. Fortunately, I got those genes. I love my legs, I love her legs. My mom is almost 52 years old, and even without all the running or training that I do as a twenty-something chica, she still has those lean, mean, power legs.
She had a long run to do today, 6 miles. I needed to do 10 miles, so I took off for four, the looped back to my parents house to pick her up. I tried to do my best to run at her pace. When I took off for my 4 miler I was averaging between 8:54 and 9:02 min/mile. With Mom, we tried to stay at an 11:00 min/mile. We did pretty well for her first 3 miles, but then the hills started to take toll on her, not on her body, not on her legs, but on her mind. I had to kick it into trainer mode, and at one point I got pretty mean with her, but she finished strong picked up her pace for the last mile (which was all uphill), and she finished in a respectable 1:14:00, which is just a little over a 12 min/mile pace, which is great for a beginner runner, a grandmother might I add.
The awesome part about it, I did it with her. I'm going to be doing a 1/2 marathon with my Mom. How cool is that? I know a lot of people don't think it's such a big deal, but it is. The truth is, and the reason I wrote this blog entry tonight is, I can't help but think about my family members or friends who have lost their mothers, fathers, or a loved one. My family members, or friends who are battling illnesses, cancer, or those who know someone who is. I am so blessed that my Mom is here with me, and healthy, and fit. And when we cross the finish line at Disney holding hands, in our little princess tutu's and tiaras, we will laugh and cry. And we will remember those who have passed, and those that are still fighting to live. We will remember those who want to run but can't, those who would give anything to cross the finish line with their mother or father, sister or brother, or dear friend. We will be running together, for those who can't... not to prove a point, or bask in the glory of another endurance race, but to just enjoy each other as a family, to enjoy each other as mother and daughter, as best friends. It's just something you can't take for granted.
Yeah, I went through my "negative Nancy" stage. And to be honest, it's quite embarrassing. All the "small stuff" that I was sweating, all seems so trivial right now. Everyone needs a reality check sometimes, and I got mine. It's time to focus on the positive. Time to bring back the magic! And where is the most magical place on earth? Disney World! Can't wait for the race with my Mom.
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Lucky Number Seven
To say that I have been busy since the last time I blogged would be an understatement. I was using these blurbs on running and family as a way to creatively vent and relieve some stress. But, lately, other than running, sleep has been the only thing on my mind and the only real way to relieve stress.
Since you last heard from me I have:
1) Moved to Winston-Salem.
2) Celebrated Lucia's first birthday.
3) Celebrated our 2nd wedding anniversary with a second honeymoon in Jamaica
4) Started a new job.
5) Accepted new responsibilities within two months of starting my new job and moved a little higher up in the pediatric world of physical therapy.
6) Lost 10 more pounds, although you can still tell that I recently (sort of) had a baby.
7) Somehow acquired IT band syndrome.
8) Been house hunting, and may have found the perfect one.
9) Lost a few years off my life when Lucia had her first "trip" to the ER.
Yep, life is good. Now my IT band syndrome, not so good. While I have been keeping consistent with my training runs, and ramping up adequately during the week to longer mileage, I haven't allowed my body sufficient time to recover. You would think that a 3-day running program would allow you enough rest, but that training plan didn't take into account that I am also on my feet all day.
I accepted a job with Wake Forest University Baptist hospital. Originally I was slated to on the pediatric team, but as I soon found out, the pediatric program was being revamped. It was a bit scary at first because I accepted this job originally to move towards practicing predominantly with kids 0-21 years of age, where as before I was working with adults occasionally. But after being oriented to the NICU I was named the lead therapist for pediatric floors at Brenner Children's hospital. My co-worker, who has become a great friend and wonderful mentor, is the lead therapist in the NICU. Now, this has proven to be the PERFECT opportunity for me, but being the lead therapist for the floors means that I have to cover a lot of ground. I see patients with varying diagnoses, on various floors, and with varying degrees of complications. It also means that I have to learn how to delegate. But we'll get to that another time. Anyway, I found that with my new perfect job, comes a few bumps, a few bruises, lots of running around, lots of standing, lots of time spent networking and rubbing elbows with surgeons, residents and medical students, and a severe lack of sleep, not to mention a severe lack of Mommy and Lucia time. It was really hard adjusting at first, but like anything else it has been worth it. No matter what I will never think I get to spend enough time with my daughter. I just know that we take advantage of the time we do have together, and I trust those who take care of her when she's not with me. As far as time for my body o recover, well, that kind of gets put on the back burner.
Lucia is flourishing, I know I am biased, but she is so smart. I can go on and on with stories of how she asserts her independence, shows her personality, communicates with her body, but this is already getting long, and totally off topic. I will say however, that since those baby steps that I was waiting so eagerly for, Lucia has quickly learned how to pick up some speed, and boy does she ever love to run (or try to run). She loves to run so much that at school one day she got excited and ran towards her teacher with her arms outstretched, and tripped and fell head first into the corner of a cubby. Needless to say that this Mommy was FREAKING out and very quickly went into clinician mode which I'm sure annoyed most of her teachers. After quick trip to the ER (Shout out to Brenner's Children's Pediatric ER, the only level I pediatric trauma unit in the region) everything checked out fine, and we were discharged home with concussion precautions, no stitches, and just a big goose egg on her forehead. Do you like my plug for my hospital, it's not like they pay me or anything;) I really thought my little princess was going to be a girly girl, but seriously she is as tough as nails, and while a lot can change, I am pretty certain she is going to be a little athlete (and trust me, not because I will push-it, but because this child needs a way to release all that energy).
So back to the IT band issue. Yes, BAD BAD BAD. I have being seeing a physical therapist and I have also been getting massages from a guy who worked on my Dad's Achilles tendinitis when he trained for the Baltimore marathon. Since I started seeing him, I have noticed a difference, but the pain is still there. I know I can get through about 11 miles without the pain being excruciating, but two weeks ago I ran a 20 miler and had to run the last 9 miles by walking a minute and running a minute. BORING, but the pain was so bad it was the only way I could get through it. I've tried the IT band strap, but it actually made it hurt worse. My friends at Fleet Feet set me up with a foam roller and an awesome stretching routine that worked much better, and of course my PT endorses the whole foam roller thing as well. I really don't know why I had never used one in the past. I made it through 6 miles on Sunday without any pain at all, but today I ran 3 and just as I was finishing up, the pain started up. So we will see what happens. My plan is to run hard for the first half and then fight my way through the rest. This is a terrible terrible strategy, but the only reason I am doing it is because I know my hip/knee won't hold up for the entire race, so I need to get the speed while I can. This is my 7th marathon so I'm hoping luck is on my side this time. The plan for after the race, REST. I won't be running the Raleigh City of Oaks marathon because I need to get healthy for the Goofy Challenge in January (This will be the first time that I have gone more than 4 days without running since I started exercising again after Lucia was born).
On a more happy note, this will be my husband's first marathon. If you read nothing else in this blog, I hope you read this, because it's the most important part. (So I will bold it to emphasize;)
My husband is a trooper. Not only did he put up with 9 months of a hormonally crazy lady, but he worked hard for almost a year after Lucia was born to allow me to train, allow me to feel like I was normal again, and allow me to be happy. He was and is a constant support system when times get tough, and continues to be my best friend when at times I don't necessarily deserve it. I know a lot of you are saying "well that's what a husband is supposed to do," but Jason really goes above and beyond, and I don't always get a chance to tell him that.
Somehow, by the grace of God, and a little bit (actually ALOTa bit) of help from my grandparents who have watched Lucia every Tuesday and Thursday and occasionally on weekends during our long runs, Jason and I have been able to train to run a marathon together. Now together means we're running the same race, but I fully expect Jason to finish at least a half hour ahead of me, and that's only if I manage to squeeze a PR or something close to it. Words can't express how proud I am of him. He doesn't usually get a lot of credit, and people don't normally peg him as an athlete with his long and lanky physique, but he most certainly is an athlete. He doesn't like to offer up the fact that Lacrosse was his life for many many many years. But all those years of running and running and running in practice (and coaches telling him he could get all the water he needed from the air, true story) has really prepared him for one of the ultimate endurance events. Some people are just naturally good at running, and he is one of them. And I am so jealous! I know that he is doing this race mainly for me, but I am so excited for him. I remember so vividly what it was like to finish my first marathon. It is a feeling that will never be matched. I'm hoping that when he crosses that finish line, his adrenaline will be pumping so hard that he will forget about the pain and realize that, he too, has caught the marathon bug, and that the Inaugural Empire State marathon is only the first of many many marathons that "Team Neves" will run.
By the way N-E-V-E-S, is S-E-V-E-N spelled backwards. My seventh marathon, my last name spells seven backwards, Lucia was born in the seventh month, lucky? Come on, I can use all the luck I can get right now!
Since you last heard from me I have:
1) Moved to Winston-Salem.
2) Celebrated Lucia's first birthday.
3) Celebrated our 2nd wedding anniversary with a second honeymoon in Jamaica
4) Started a new job.
5) Accepted new responsibilities within two months of starting my new job and moved a little higher up in the pediatric world of physical therapy.
6) Lost 10 more pounds, although you can still tell that I recently (sort of) had a baby.
7) Somehow acquired IT band syndrome.
8) Been house hunting, and may have found the perfect one.
9) Lost a few years off my life when Lucia had her first "trip" to the ER.
Yep, life is good. Now my IT band syndrome, not so good. While I have been keeping consistent with my training runs, and ramping up adequately during the week to longer mileage, I haven't allowed my body sufficient time to recover. You would think that a 3-day running program would allow you enough rest, but that training plan didn't take into account that I am also on my feet all day.
I accepted a job with Wake Forest University Baptist hospital. Originally I was slated to on the pediatric team, but as I soon found out, the pediatric program was being revamped. It was a bit scary at first because I accepted this job originally to move towards practicing predominantly with kids 0-21 years of age, where as before I was working with adults occasionally. But after being oriented to the NICU I was named the lead therapist for pediatric floors at Brenner Children's hospital. My co-worker, who has become a great friend and wonderful mentor, is the lead therapist in the NICU. Now, this has proven to be the PERFECT opportunity for me, but being the lead therapist for the floors means that I have to cover a lot of ground. I see patients with varying diagnoses, on various floors, and with varying degrees of complications. It also means that I have to learn how to delegate. But we'll get to that another time. Anyway, I found that with my new perfect job, comes a few bumps, a few bruises, lots of running around, lots of standing, lots of time spent networking and rubbing elbows with surgeons, residents and medical students, and a severe lack of sleep, not to mention a severe lack of Mommy and Lucia time. It was really hard adjusting at first, but like anything else it has been worth it. No matter what I will never think I get to spend enough time with my daughter. I just know that we take advantage of the time we do have together, and I trust those who take care of her when she's not with me. As far as time for my body o recover, well, that kind of gets put on the back burner.
Lucia is flourishing, I know I am biased, but she is so smart. I can go on and on with stories of how she asserts her independence, shows her personality, communicates with her body, but this is already getting long, and totally off topic. I will say however, that since those baby steps that I was waiting so eagerly for, Lucia has quickly learned how to pick up some speed, and boy does she ever love to run (or try to run). She loves to run so much that at school one day she got excited and ran towards her teacher with her arms outstretched, and tripped and fell head first into the corner of a cubby. Needless to say that this Mommy was FREAKING out and very quickly went into clinician mode which I'm sure annoyed most of her teachers. After quick trip to the ER (Shout out to Brenner's Children's Pediatric ER, the only level I pediatric trauma unit in the region) everything checked out fine, and we were discharged home with concussion precautions, no stitches, and just a big goose egg on her forehead. Do you like my plug for my hospital, it's not like they pay me or anything;) I really thought my little princess was going to be a girly girl, but seriously she is as tough as nails, and while a lot can change, I am pretty certain she is going to be a little athlete (and trust me, not because I will push-it, but because this child needs a way to release all that energy).
So back to the IT band issue. Yes, BAD BAD BAD. I have being seeing a physical therapist and I have also been getting massages from a guy who worked on my Dad's Achilles tendinitis when he trained for the Baltimore marathon. Since I started seeing him, I have noticed a difference, but the pain is still there. I know I can get through about 11 miles without the pain being excruciating, but two weeks ago I ran a 20 miler and had to run the last 9 miles by walking a minute and running a minute. BORING, but the pain was so bad it was the only way I could get through it. I've tried the IT band strap, but it actually made it hurt worse. My friends at Fleet Feet set me up with a foam roller and an awesome stretching routine that worked much better, and of course my PT endorses the whole foam roller thing as well. I really don't know why I had never used one in the past. I made it through 6 miles on Sunday without any pain at all, but today I ran 3 and just as I was finishing up, the pain started up. So we will see what happens. My plan is to run hard for the first half and then fight my way through the rest. This is a terrible terrible strategy, but the only reason I am doing it is because I know my hip/knee won't hold up for the entire race, so I need to get the speed while I can. This is my 7th marathon so I'm hoping luck is on my side this time. The plan for after the race, REST. I won't be running the Raleigh City of Oaks marathon because I need to get healthy for the Goofy Challenge in January (This will be the first time that I have gone more than 4 days without running since I started exercising again after Lucia was born).
On a more happy note, this will be my husband's first marathon. If you read nothing else in this blog, I hope you read this, because it's the most important part. (So I will bold it to emphasize;)
My husband is a trooper. Not only did he put up with 9 months of a hormonally crazy lady, but he worked hard for almost a year after Lucia was born to allow me to train, allow me to feel like I was normal again, and allow me to be happy. He was and is a constant support system when times get tough, and continues to be my best friend when at times I don't necessarily deserve it. I know a lot of you are saying "well that's what a husband is supposed to do," but Jason really goes above and beyond, and I don't always get a chance to tell him that.
Somehow, by the grace of God, and a little bit (actually ALOTa bit) of help from my grandparents who have watched Lucia every Tuesday and Thursday and occasionally on weekends during our long runs, Jason and I have been able to train to run a marathon together. Now together means we're running the same race, but I fully expect Jason to finish at least a half hour ahead of me, and that's only if I manage to squeeze a PR or something close to it. Words can't express how proud I am of him. He doesn't usually get a lot of credit, and people don't normally peg him as an athlete with his long and lanky physique, but he most certainly is an athlete. He doesn't like to offer up the fact that Lacrosse was his life for many many many years. But all those years of running and running and running in practice (and coaches telling him he could get all the water he needed from the air, true story) has really prepared him for one of the ultimate endurance events. Some people are just naturally good at running, and he is one of them. And I am so jealous! I know that he is doing this race mainly for me, but I am so excited for him. I remember so vividly what it was like to finish my first marathon. It is a feeling that will never be matched. I'm hoping that when he crosses that finish line, his adrenaline will be pumping so hard that he will forget about the pain and realize that, he too, has caught the marathon bug, and that the Inaugural Empire State marathon is only the first of many many marathons that "Team Neves" will run.
By the way N-E-V-E-S, is S-E-V-E-N spelled backwards. My seventh marathon, my last name spells seven backwards, Lucia was born in the seventh month, lucky? Come on, I can use all the luck I can get right now!
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Catching up
Well hello there. It has been way too long since my last post, but better late than never right?
It seems like lately "catching up" is all I've been doing. Catching up on my documentation at work, catching up on missed workouts, catching up with my best friend, catching up on time with my daughter because I spent time catching up with my best friend, catching up on packing (not so much), and... well I guess just catching up on life in general.
These past few months have flown by, and I have a feeling these next few months will just take off with lightning speed. We've got the move, a new job, Lucia's first birthday, our anniversary get away in Jamaica 'mon, and then it's off to a wedding in Pennsylvania to finish out the summer. And of course, in between that, there will be running. Lots and lots of running.
So where did we leave off...? Ahhhh, the Buffalo marathon. Not my best, but those of you that follow me already know that. It was a little disappointing, but to be honest, I didn't feel at all defeated like when I ran Disney. In fact, I truly felt it was an accomplishment that I actually finished the race. Yep, my 6th marathon was definitely a doozy, but I'm glad I did. It taught me a lot about my body, about running, and about "smarts." I would really like to dedicate a whole post to the Buffalo marathon, but this isn't it. Right now, I'm just looking forward to lucky number 7!!!
I will be running my 7th marathon on October 16th in Syracuse, New York. I am a little bit worried about it since its an inaugural race, but a marathon is a marathon and it should be cold, and cold weather (no matter how severe) will be welcomed after having sweat through the Memorial Day weekend heat wave in Buffalo this year.
Because of the stress fracture in my foot and my broken toe, I took a fellow physical therapist's advice and tweaked my training regimen to get rid of what she calls the "junk miles." So basically I replace my mid-week run with non-impact cardio. Typically I will do the elliptical, but I have also been adding some swimming and water jogging to the mix. I follow Hal Higdon's "Marathon 3" program, check it out; http://www.halhigdon.com/marathon/novice3intro.htm. So far it has worked out beautifully and I feel great. Barring a weekend wedding planning trip to Cleveland to visit my best friend Gina (realistically an excuse for Gina and I to relive our college days), I haven't skipped a training run. My feet feel great, my toe is doing better but still swells up from time to time, and I am definitely getting faster. I now consistently do my short runs at a 9 min/mile pace or less, and my long runs consistently have been between a 9:15 and 9:25 min/mile pace. The test will come once we move back to North Carolina and I have to battle the rolling hills of Oak Valley. On the positive side, it will be fantastic training, and maybe enough to get me over my mental issue with hills. We shall see...
Lucia is walking... well she has taken up to five steps (independently, without assistance, loss of balance after fifth step with minimum assistance to recover... in PT talk). Two weekends ago I went for a run with my Dad and we saw a younger man and his daughter running the hills of Oak Valley. His daughter looked to be about 9 or 10 and was in wonderful shape. You could tell she was a little athlete, and most importantly you could tell she was enjoying running with her Dad! I thought it was so wonderful that at that young of an age she was out having fun by hitting the pavement. When I was that young, even though I was always involved in sports, running was more of a punishment. I hope that Lucia will see running as treat, and it looks like it won't be too long until we find out exactly what she will think of it. My hunch is that she will love the way she feels when she some speed.
Anyway, in anticipation of a busy busy busy end of the year I have mapped out all my races until March 2012. What does the running queue look like?
Empire Inaugural Marathon Oct 2011- Syracuse New York
City of Oaks Marathon Nov 2011- Raleigh, NC
Disney 1/2 Marathon January 2012- Orlando, FL
Disney Marathon completing the Goofy Challenge January 2012- Orlando, FL
National Marathon March 2012- Washington, DC
My plan is to complete my 10th marathon where I started my first.. in DC!!! The plan after marathon number 10 is to not have a plan:) I just will keep on running, and see where it takes me.
It seems like lately "catching up" is all I've been doing. Catching up on my documentation at work, catching up on missed workouts, catching up with my best friend, catching up on time with my daughter because I spent time catching up with my best friend, catching up on packing (not so much), and... well I guess just catching up on life in general.
These past few months have flown by, and I have a feeling these next few months will just take off with lightning speed. We've got the move, a new job, Lucia's first birthday, our anniversary get away in Jamaica 'mon, and then it's off to a wedding in Pennsylvania to finish out the summer. And of course, in between that, there will be running. Lots and lots of running.
So where did we leave off...? Ahhhh, the Buffalo marathon. Not my best, but those of you that follow me already know that. It was a little disappointing, but to be honest, I didn't feel at all defeated like when I ran Disney. In fact, I truly felt it was an accomplishment that I actually finished the race. Yep, my 6th marathon was definitely a doozy, but I'm glad I did. It taught me a lot about my body, about running, and about "smarts." I would really like to dedicate a whole post to the Buffalo marathon, but this isn't it. Right now, I'm just looking forward to lucky number 7!!!
I will be running my 7th marathon on October 16th in Syracuse, New York. I am a little bit worried about it since its an inaugural race, but a marathon is a marathon and it should be cold, and cold weather (no matter how severe) will be welcomed after having sweat through the Memorial Day weekend heat wave in Buffalo this year.
Because of the stress fracture in my foot and my broken toe, I took a fellow physical therapist's advice and tweaked my training regimen to get rid of what she calls the "junk miles." So basically I replace my mid-week run with non-impact cardio. Typically I will do the elliptical, but I have also been adding some swimming and water jogging to the mix. I follow Hal Higdon's "Marathon 3" program, check it out; http://www.halhigdon.com/marathon/novice3intro.htm. So far it has worked out beautifully and I feel great. Barring a weekend wedding planning trip to Cleveland to visit my best friend Gina (realistically an excuse for Gina and I to relive our college days), I haven't skipped a training run. My feet feel great, my toe is doing better but still swells up from time to time, and I am definitely getting faster. I now consistently do my short runs at a 9 min/mile pace or less, and my long runs consistently have been between a 9:15 and 9:25 min/mile pace. The test will come once we move back to North Carolina and I have to battle the rolling hills of Oak Valley. On the positive side, it will be fantastic training, and maybe enough to get me over my mental issue with hills. We shall see...
Lucia is walking... well she has taken up to five steps (independently, without assistance, loss of balance after fifth step with minimum assistance to recover... in PT talk). Two weekends ago I went for a run with my Dad and we saw a younger man and his daughter running the hills of Oak Valley. His daughter looked to be about 9 or 10 and was in wonderful shape. You could tell she was a little athlete, and most importantly you could tell she was enjoying running with her Dad! I thought it was so wonderful that at that young of an age she was out having fun by hitting the pavement. When I was that young, even though I was always involved in sports, running was more of a punishment. I hope that Lucia will see running as treat, and it looks like it won't be too long until we find out exactly what she will think of it. My hunch is that she will love the way she feels when she some speed.
Anyway, in anticipation of a busy busy busy end of the year I have mapped out all my races until March 2012. What does the running queue look like?
Empire Inaugural Marathon Oct 2011- Syracuse New York
City of Oaks Marathon Nov 2011- Raleigh, NC
Disney 1/2 Marathon January 2012- Orlando, FL
Disney Marathon completing the Goofy Challenge January 2012- Orlando, FL
National Marathon March 2012- Washington, DC
My plan is to complete my 10th marathon where I started my first.. in DC!!! The plan after marathon number 10 is to not have a plan:) I just will keep on running, and see where it takes me.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Busy Busy Bee
On Monday my daughter proved to me that she can identify the bee that hangs from her activity center. If I say "Where's the bee?" and I go "bzzzzzz" she quickly turns around and grabs at it and attempts to make a "bah" sound. She is starting to identify a lot of objects actually. She points to the ceiling when I ask "Where is the fan?" and goes on a frantic search for her stuffed kitty when I say "Where is the cat." In fact, she said "cat" before she started to say "Ma-ma"... of course, "Da-da" was the first thing out of her mouth a few months ago. But, I find it funny that this week, of all weeks, she learned how about her bumble bee.
I have felt completely overwhelmed by everything in my life lately . While I know that I have been tremendously blessed with a wonderful daughter, a great husband, and a fantastic family, sometimes things just get tough.
We have a had a lot of things come up in the past month. I can't really get into all the details quite yet, but it involves us relocating once again. Yep, we will be on the move shortly, we know where to, we know approximately when, and we know that most likely I will be making the move by myself with Lucia a few months before Jason can join us. Once we know all the specifics, we will be sure to let everyone know about it, but this is a good, good, good thing, especially for my husband's career! And moving to a bigger city with a world-renowned hospital will be wonderful for my career! But, planning a move with a 10 month old can get to be a little hectic.
So. I have been a busy busy busy bee lately... busy at home, busy at work, and busy with my running. The Friday before Mother's Day I completely broke down, I guess I was just having one of those days, and I kept wishing for more time so I could get more accomplished. I felt like I was being pulled in too many directions... like I was just keeping my head above the water. It's ot nenough for me to be just fine. It isn't okay that I am a fine mother, a fine therapist, a fine wife, and a fine runner. I want to be a great mother, and great therapist, a great wife, and a great runner...and sometimes, more often than not, that just seems impossible.
On Mother's Day I ran 20 miles in 85 degree weather (I think that for the last few miles it was closer to 90 degrees). I purposely ran without my ipod so I could just take in everything my run had to offer. I let my thoughts run wild, and I tried to make sense of everything. In the 3 hours and 26 minutes that it took me to run the 20 miles, I went through every emotion possible. When I got home, even with my slow time, I was happy. I worked everything out, and I was ready to take on all that these next few months are promising to bring us. And then...I got sick...
20 miles in that weather had completely depleted me. I was totally dehydrated, and even though I made sure to drink every two to three miles in the first 10 miles, and every mile thereafter, I just could not keep up with my body's demands. So for the rest of my Mother's Day I was curled up in a ball in bed. Jason brought Lucia up to nap with me, which was just as pefect as a Mother's Day can get, but I was feeling terrible. Lucia wasn't feeling so hot either... she'd been battling another ear infection (looks like we may have to have some tubes put in soon) and on top of that her pediatrician had just put her on allergy medicine(pretty common down in these parts...another reason to add to the list of why I am excited about moving. So, I had to make sure I could take care of her too. By that evening I was feeling better, I could eat again, my pounding headache was gone and I was ready to go celebrate Mother's Day!
We went out for a quick dinner and then came home to put Lucia in bed. She went down pretty quickly... thanks to the antihistamines I guess. But at about midnight she was having her coughing fits again. We took turns staying up with her and somehow made it through the night feeling at least a little rested.
I wasn't even sore the next day, which tells me that I may have been able to push myself a little harder, although that probably wouldn't have been the smartest thing to do. After a busy day of work I was looking forward to heading home and going to bed early with the baby, which is basically what happened, well except for another coughing fit we had to deal with at 1am. This time she coughed so much that she threw up all over the place. Jason grabbed her and took to her to go get a bath while I frantically was trying to clean up her blankets, sheets, and grab a new diaper and towel for when she got out. I ran into her room to grab a diaper and tripped and fell into Lucia's toychest. I knew instantly that I hurt myself pretty badly, and I was screaming involuntarily. I waited for the pain in my foot to subside, but it didn't. I knew that it was more than just a stubbed toe. Still, when I caught my breath and stopped screaming, I walked it off, finished cleaning up the baby, and tried to get her back to sleep, which didn't happen until about 4am.
The next morning I was working the orthopedic clinic and it was obvious to everybody that I had a terrible limp. Our radiology tech told me that she could x-ray my foot if I wanted, and after I refused a few times, I agreed. I knew what was going to show up on the x-ray. You guessed it, a broken toe. In the same foot there was also a small stress fracture (also something I suspected, but unrelated to the events the night before). So, we buddy taped my toes together, and I wrapped my foot up with some ice and went on with the day. Of course, I was a little upset, but I already had decided before the x-ray that I was going to run my race anyway. And I will.
In two weeks I will run my 6th marathon, and when I return after completing it my husband and I are in for a busy few months. So, what will I do?... I will continue to be a busy busy bee, and I will try not to complain about it too much. I've got to fly from one flower to the next, and not look back. Truthfully, a busy bee is all I know how to be, it's a survival mechanism I guess.
Marathon #6...here I go, ready or not.
I have felt completely overwhelmed by everything in my life lately . While I know that I have been tremendously blessed with a wonderful daughter, a great husband, and a fantastic family, sometimes things just get tough.
We have a had a lot of things come up in the past month. I can't really get into all the details quite yet, but it involves us relocating once again. Yep, we will be on the move shortly, we know where to, we know approximately when, and we know that most likely I will be making the move by myself with Lucia a few months before Jason can join us. Once we know all the specifics, we will be sure to let everyone know about it, but this is a good, good, good thing, especially for my husband's career! And moving to a bigger city with a world-renowned hospital will be wonderful for my career! But, planning a move with a 10 month old can get to be a little hectic.
So. I have been a busy busy busy bee lately... busy at home, busy at work, and busy with my running. The Friday before Mother's Day I completely broke down, I guess I was just having one of those days, and I kept wishing for more time so I could get more accomplished. I felt like I was being pulled in too many directions... like I was just keeping my head above the water. It's ot nenough for me to be just fine. It isn't okay that I am a fine mother, a fine therapist, a fine wife, and a fine runner. I want to be a great mother, and great therapist, a great wife, and a great runner...and sometimes, more often than not, that just seems impossible.
On Mother's Day I ran 20 miles in 85 degree weather (I think that for the last few miles it was closer to 90 degrees). I purposely ran without my ipod so I could just take in everything my run had to offer. I let my thoughts run wild, and I tried to make sense of everything. In the 3 hours and 26 minutes that it took me to run the 20 miles, I went through every emotion possible. When I got home, even with my slow time, I was happy. I worked everything out, and I was ready to take on all that these next few months are promising to bring us. And then...I got sick...
20 miles in that weather had completely depleted me. I was totally dehydrated, and even though I made sure to drink every two to three miles in the first 10 miles, and every mile thereafter, I just could not keep up with my body's demands. So for the rest of my Mother's Day I was curled up in a ball in bed. Jason brought Lucia up to nap with me, which was just as pefect as a Mother's Day can get, but I was feeling terrible. Lucia wasn't feeling so hot either... she'd been battling another ear infection (looks like we may have to have some tubes put in soon) and on top of that her pediatrician had just put her on allergy medicine(pretty common down in these parts...another reason to add to the list of why I am excited about moving. So, I had to make sure I could take care of her too. By that evening I was feeling better, I could eat again, my pounding headache was gone and I was ready to go celebrate Mother's Day!
We went out for a quick dinner and then came home to put Lucia in bed. She went down pretty quickly... thanks to the antihistamines I guess. But at about midnight she was having her coughing fits again. We took turns staying up with her and somehow made it through the night feeling at least a little rested.
I wasn't even sore the next day, which tells me that I may have been able to push myself a little harder, although that probably wouldn't have been the smartest thing to do. After a busy day of work I was looking forward to heading home and going to bed early with the baby, which is basically what happened, well except for another coughing fit we had to deal with at 1am. This time she coughed so much that she threw up all over the place. Jason grabbed her and took to her to go get a bath while I frantically was trying to clean up her blankets, sheets, and grab a new diaper and towel for when she got out. I ran into her room to grab a diaper and tripped and fell into Lucia's toychest. I knew instantly that I hurt myself pretty badly, and I was screaming involuntarily. I waited for the pain in my foot to subside, but it didn't. I knew that it was more than just a stubbed toe. Still, when I caught my breath and stopped screaming, I walked it off, finished cleaning up the baby, and tried to get her back to sleep, which didn't happen until about 4am.
The next morning I was working the orthopedic clinic and it was obvious to everybody that I had a terrible limp. Our radiology tech told me that she could x-ray my foot if I wanted, and after I refused a few times, I agreed. I knew what was going to show up on the x-ray. You guessed it, a broken toe. In the same foot there was also a small stress fracture (also something I suspected, but unrelated to the events the night before). So, we buddy taped my toes together, and I wrapped my foot up with some ice and went on with the day. Of course, I was a little upset, but I already had decided before the x-ray that I was going to run my race anyway. And I will.
In two weeks I will run my 6th marathon, and when I return after completing it my husband and I are in for a busy few months. So, what will I do?... I will continue to be a busy busy bee, and I will try not to complain about it too much. I've got to fly from one flower to the next, and not look back. Truthfully, a busy bee is all I know how to be, it's a survival mechanism I guess.
Marathon #6...here I go, ready or not.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Numbers
Numbers. With 7 weeks to go until the Buffalo marathon, it is now all about the numbers. I am not a numbers girl... formulas, math, it generally means nothing to me. Normal logic doesn't typically work with me, and when I'm terribly mad or upset, you may describe me as somewhat irrational. My husband, on the other hand, who has his degree in Engineering and Management from a well respected Engineering school in upstate New York, is all about the numbers. He is logical, rational, realistic, and most of the time, makes perfect sense. So, when it comes to running, I try to take his advice and pay attention to the numbers. I hate to turn running into one of the things that I hate most, but when you're running miles on end, knowing the numbers and appreciating the numbers can really make a difference in your confidence and sometimes it can even make a difference in your endurance.
7... 7 weeks until the Buffalo marathon
38... I have run 38 miles total this week, 18 miles this morning.
140... I need to run 140 miles in the next 4 weeks before I can taper.
194... I will log 194 more miles before competing in the marathon on May 29th, 2011
10... Aiming for 10 minute miles in order to reach my goal of 4 hours and 30 minutes. (I actually need to run about a 10:18 min/mile pace)
25... The number of pounds I gained with my pregnancy.
49... About 49 days until the race... a little less.
6...This will be marathon #6 for me.
8...I am now wearing a size 8.
12... I was a size 12 a week after the baby.
3... I go through 3 pairs of shoes for each marathon that I train for (Brooks Adrenalines)
5... The amount of miles I typically run with Lucia during the week, this week I towed her along on an 8 miler.
5.5... It took me about 5.5 months to lose 25 pounds after Lucia was born.
2000...The amount of calories I try to eat in a day (I try not to eat more)
165... My average heart rate on my long runs.
59...My average resting heart rate.
35... To date I have lost 35 pounds, 10 pounds more than what I gained, 9 months post-baby.
9...The number of marathons I will have completed by January 8th, 2012... also the number of marathons I will have completed before Jason and I plan on trying for a little brother or sister for our princess.
2... I've got two more days of rest until I run again.
Numbers... I really don't like numbers.
7... 7 weeks until the Buffalo marathon
38... I have run 38 miles total this week, 18 miles this morning.
140... I need to run 140 miles in the next 4 weeks before I can taper.
194... I will log 194 more miles before competing in the marathon on May 29th, 2011
10... Aiming for 10 minute miles in order to reach my goal of 4 hours and 30 minutes. (I actually need to run about a 10:18 min/mile pace)
25... The number of pounds I gained with my pregnancy.
49... About 49 days until the race... a little less.
6...This will be marathon #6 for me.
8...I am now wearing a size 8.
12... I was a size 12 a week after the baby.
3... I go through 3 pairs of shoes for each marathon that I train for (Brooks Adrenalines)
5... The amount of miles I typically run with Lucia during the week, this week I towed her along on an 8 miler.
5.5... It took me about 5.5 months to lose 25 pounds after Lucia was born.
2000...The amount of calories I try to eat in a day (I try not to eat more)
165... My average heart rate on my long runs.
59...My average resting heart rate.
35... To date I have lost 35 pounds, 10 pounds more than what I gained, 9 months post-baby.
9...The number of marathons I will have completed by January 8th, 2012... also the number of marathons I will have completed before Jason and I plan on trying for a little brother or sister for our princess.
2... I've got two more days of rest until I run again.
Numbers... I really don't like numbers.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
"I simply remember my favorite things..."
Two months from now I will be running my 6th marathon. Two months to go!
Training is going much better this time around. I managed to do all of my training runs for the Disney Marathon, but I was slow. Now I can finally say I'm getting faster. Today I ran 17 miles in 2:46:13 which is an average pace of 9:47 min/mile. I hit the 13.1 mark at exactly 2 hours and 5 minutes, only 2 minutes slower than my best half marathon time pre-Lucia!
This week I logged 36 miles total, next week I will be up to 38 miles with an 18 mile run on Sunday. That's a lot of miles, and I still have a lot of training left. I have three long runs left; 18 miles, 19 miles, and 20 miles. And while I am so looking forward to tapering in May, I am enjoying running more than ever! But with all the miles I've been running, I need a little bit of help from my favorite things.
Things I can't live without when I'm training for a marathon:
1) My Garmin GPS watch- I had an older version with a touch bezel, but it didn't seem to pace me like my new one. Now I have the Forerunner 310XT, it doesn't have a touch bezel so I can run with it in the rain, and I can sweat on it, and I can probably throw it in the washing machine and it would still keep my pace. It does the perfect job of keeping me on track!
2)My ipod shuffle- On the playlist- Everything from Katy Perry's 'Firework', to The Who's 'Baba O'riley'. But the song that keeps me really moving is 'Come sail away' by Styx.
3)Ballenga socks- Love them, and my feet love them.
4)Orange flavored low-calorie Gatorade- I've always been a big Gatorade fan, definitely my sport drink of choice, but their new products are great! For some reason though, the only flavor I can really stomach is Orange. The fruit punch totally makes me sick, must be the red dye.
5)My treadmill- Seriously, the treadmill is a life safer when you have a small child. I prefer to run outside, but sometimes, I just can't. So when it's too much of a hassel to take Lucia out in her jogger, I can always set her down in the play-pen and hit up the treadmill.
6)My husband- He is the designated treadmill fixer-upper. With as many miles as I run, the treadmill needs to be tweaked about once a month, and he always makes sure it's running well for me. Plus, now he's running (yep, training for the Syracuse Empire marathon in October). I've said it before, and I'll say it again, I couldn't possibly be able to enjoy my favorite hobby without him. He is my number 1 fan and motivator, and I can't thank him enough for that.
7) The alligator that hangs out by the sidewalk on Westbury Park Way at the end of my 6 mile route- I call him Leather-face. Leather-face has been hanging out a little too close to humans ever since the weather has gotten nice. He's a pretty big guy, I'd say about 7-8 feet long, and pretty thick... and he's pretty scary. So when I'm finishing up my route and I hear him hissing at me (yes, gators hiss, well, I guess that's the best way to describe it) I speed up quite a bit. There's nothing like a big gator to trick you into running a negative split. Chomp, chomp.
8)My ipad- I use my ipad for a lot of things having to do with my runs. But my favorite is the Runners World app. Love, love, love it!
9)The Nike outlet store- I can always use more running clothes. I'm a bit partial to the LiveStrong stuff, and they have so many cute new things now. There is nothing glamorous about running, especially marathon running. After finishing 26.2 miles no one looks good, but there's nothing wrong with trying;)
10)Glide- This stuff is literally a running essential. It comes in a deodorant-like stick. You use it on your body, your thighs, underneath your bra, etc. It prevents chaffing. I usually have to use it on my lower back where the tag of my shorts rubs up on me for miles and miles. If I forget a little bit of glide, I pay for it the second I hit the shower, and ooohhhh does it sting.
11)My BOB baby jogger- I can't live without my BOB, I would recommend it to any mother runner (or father runner). When the weather is nice enough, and it fits into Lucia's schedule, I love taking her with me for short 3 to 4 mile runs. She loves it too. I usually make a trip to the playground out of it, so I think she is starting to associate my running with an award (which I guess, can't be a bad thing).
12)My baby- I love my little Lucia. While I get sad thinking about her growing up so fast, I'm getting really excited about the day that she can finally run with me. She is just such an inspiration for me. I do it all for Lucia.
So, these are a few of my favorite things, all of which contribute to the runner that I am. I'm hoping that these favorite things will be enough to help me make it through the next two months, and maybe get that PR that I'm aiming for. I'll let you know how it goes.
Training is going much better this time around. I managed to do all of my training runs for the Disney Marathon, but I was slow. Now I can finally say I'm getting faster. Today I ran 17 miles in 2:46:13 which is an average pace of 9:47 min/mile. I hit the 13.1 mark at exactly 2 hours and 5 minutes, only 2 minutes slower than my best half marathon time pre-Lucia!
This week I logged 36 miles total, next week I will be up to 38 miles with an 18 mile run on Sunday. That's a lot of miles, and I still have a lot of training left. I have three long runs left; 18 miles, 19 miles, and 20 miles. And while I am so looking forward to tapering in May, I am enjoying running more than ever! But with all the miles I've been running, I need a little bit of help from my favorite things.
Things I can't live without when I'm training for a marathon:
1) My Garmin GPS watch- I had an older version with a touch bezel, but it didn't seem to pace me like my new one. Now I have the Forerunner 310XT, it doesn't have a touch bezel so I can run with it in the rain, and I can sweat on it, and I can probably throw it in the washing machine and it would still keep my pace. It does the perfect job of keeping me on track!
2)My ipod shuffle- On the playlist- Everything from Katy Perry's 'Firework', to The Who's 'Baba O'riley'. But the song that keeps me really moving is 'Come sail away' by Styx.
3)Ballenga socks- Love them, and my feet love them.
4)Orange flavored low-calorie Gatorade- I've always been a big Gatorade fan, definitely my sport drink of choice, but their new products are great! For some reason though, the only flavor I can really stomach is Orange. The fruit punch totally makes me sick, must be the red dye.
5)My treadmill- Seriously, the treadmill is a life safer when you have a small child. I prefer to run outside, but sometimes, I just can't. So when it's too much of a hassel to take Lucia out in her jogger, I can always set her down in the play-pen and hit up the treadmill.
6)My husband- He is the designated treadmill fixer-upper. With as many miles as I run, the treadmill needs to be tweaked about once a month, and he always makes sure it's running well for me. Plus, now he's running (yep, training for the Syracuse Empire marathon in October). I've said it before, and I'll say it again, I couldn't possibly be able to enjoy my favorite hobby without him. He is my number 1 fan and motivator, and I can't thank him enough for that.
7) The alligator that hangs out by the sidewalk on Westbury Park Way at the end of my 6 mile route- I call him Leather-face. Leather-face has been hanging out a little too close to humans ever since the weather has gotten nice. He's a pretty big guy, I'd say about 7-8 feet long, and pretty thick... and he's pretty scary. So when I'm finishing up my route and I hear him hissing at me (yes, gators hiss, well, I guess that's the best way to describe it) I speed up quite a bit. There's nothing like a big gator to trick you into running a negative split. Chomp, chomp.
8)My ipad- I use my ipad for a lot of things having to do with my runs. But my favorite is the Runners World app. Love, love, love it!
9)The Nike outlet store- I can always use more running clothes. I'm a bit partial to the LiveStrong stuff, and they have so many cute new things now. There is nothing glamorous about running, especially marathon running. After finishing 26.2 miles no one looks good, but there's nothing wrong with trying;)
10)Glide- This stuff is literally a running essential. It comes in a deodorant-like stick. You use it on your body, your thighs, underneath your bra, etc. It prevents chaffing. I usually have to use it on my lower back where the tag of my shorts rubs up on me for miles and miles. If I forget a little bit of glide, I pay for it the second I hit the shower, and ooohhhh does it sting.
11)My BOB baby jogger- I can't live without my BOB, I would recommend it to any mother runner (or father runner). When the weather is nice enough, and it fits into Lucia's schedule, I love taking her with me for short 3 to 4 mile runs. She loves it too. I usually make a trip to the playground out of it, so I think she is starting to associate my running with an award (which I guess, can't be a bad thing).
12)My baby- I love my little Lucia. While I get sad thinking about her growing up so fast, I'm getting really excited about the day that she can finally run with me. She is just such an inspiration for me. I do it all for Lucia.
So, these are a few of my favorite things, all of which contribute to the runner that I am. I'm hoping that these favorite things will be enough to help me make it through the next two months, and maybe get that PR that I'm aiming for. I'll let you know how it goes.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Baby Steps
Next week, Lucia will be 9 months old. NINE MONTHS! It's crazy to think that we will soon be celebrating her 1st birthday party, and let me tell you, she is growing up quickly. While she has always been ahead of the curve developmentally (rolling back to belly and belly to back at 3 months, sitting unsupported at 5 months, crawling/scooting at 6 months), I am certainly not ready for those first baby steps that she may soon be taking.
These past few weeks we've been battling colds, ear infections, and the usual coughing spells, but it hasn't slowed her down any, and it hasn't slowed Mommy down either. The quicker Lucia gets, the quicker I get. I get quicker at catching her falls, I get quicker at locking the doors, and latching the drawers, I get quicker at making her laugh, I get quicker at saying "no," and I get quicker on the road. That's right, somehow, I have found the time to get faster, but we'll get to that with a another post later this week.
Lucia is getting stronger, taller, bigger, and smarter, at a rate that I find hard to keep up with, but somehow I'm managing. This past week she perfected her pull-to-stand (and pulling herself up onto everything possible is all she does). While she did it in front of me a few weeks ago, as of Monday she had yet to do it without immediately falling down. On Wednesday my husband called to tell me that her teacher said that she had pulled herself to stand on the "baby fence" and stood there for about 10 minutes all by herself (probably because she hadn't figured out how to get down yet). I never thought I would have the reaction that I did, I mean I see kids pull to stand everyday, I help them pull to stand, I teach them to pull to stand... so crying about my daughter doing it was a little unexpected, both to my husband and myself. When I thought about it a little more I realized that I didn't cry because she did it, I cried because I missed it.
I try not to be a therapist at home, and while its hard, I have really tried not to treat my daughter like a patient when it comes to her development. I try to focus more on giving my daughter opportunities and experiences like taking her to the beach, the park, and letting her explore. She'll crawl when she wants to, she'll stand when she wants to, and one day (probably soon) she will walk when she wants to. The problem is, I want to be there when she does.
I am not ready for her baby steps. More importantly, I am not ready to miss her baby steps! I want to be there for the first step, the moment when she discovers that her feet give her freedom, and her legs give her power. I don't remember what it was like to take my first steps, but I wish I did, and I want to be there for my daughter's so I can tell her exactly when and how she did it.
"The journey of 1000 miles begins with 1 step." One step, one big important step. I'm waiting for it. I'm excited for it. I'm dreading it. One baby step will lead to many baby steps, many baby steps will lead to "big girl" steps, "big girl" steps will lead to running, and once she's running, I know it won't be long before she's gone, and as Dr. Seuss so eloquently put it...oh the places she'll go! ...Baby steps.
Baby steps...
Baby steps... I'm not quite ready for those baby steps yet, even though it may mean that she's one step closer to running her first race with her mother.
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